Friday, March 12, 2010

 

      It's been around thirteen or fourteen years since I first heard about the "power of the word"- not just words spoken aloud, but words that formulated "mere" thoughts as well.

      This led me to begin imagining that anyone around me could hear my thoughts and do my best to act as such, for regardless of the person's awareness, I became totally conscious that they could at least FEEL my thoughts.

       The popular documentary "The Secret" elaborates on this theme of energy that is created with the mind and permeates our entire world- stemming from within our being and echoing out into the far reaches of the universe.

        It's fascinated me just how many works I've come across that has validated this idea, which is now a great, fundamental truth of mine. One of my favorite things to do is walk by people and think very loving and kind thoughts towards them, which oftentimes feels to me like mental caresses on their soul. Rarely do I see anyone take notice of this act, but I believe it's noticed on a level that makes a world of difference- definitely to my own various states of being.

       With the amount of information I am inundated with on a daily basis, it's comforting to feel a sense of balance through the application of my mental faculties on things (usually silence or set frequencies of sounds) that allow my mind to rest. These activities tend to be accompanied by an increase in my heart and soul awareness.

          Imagination, Inspiration and Intuition are three "I"s that Rudolf Steiner  mentions repeatedly in his written works. Though these aspects of being can USE words, words are not required. I've been consciously playing with them more lately. They are innate, yet in many ways these past few months, I've felt become somewhat estranged from them, like long lost best friends.

         Since the holiday season began in late November, I studied a great deal of book knowledge and have practiced artistic techniques that have caused me to advance in ways that are important to me. However, I'm aware of just how vital it is to balance outward striving with inner resolve to be calm and focused on the wisdom that is in and all around Us- the wisdom that IS Us.

          It can be easy for our minds, especially our ego-mind, to play tricks (Pan) on us, having a ton of fun, wreaking serious havoc and/or anything in between, but at the end of the day and at the so-called "end" of life, it is key, for me, to remember that, "Mind is everything; therefore what we think, we become." (The Buddha) and continue practicing the wonder full art of being/stillness in motion.

 

in La'kesh

Friday, January 8, 2010

 

OBSESSION:

the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire, etc.

       In learning more about this word & these feelings, I've come to realize just how valuable obsession can be. Oftentimes it's had a negative connotation in my mind. Being a scorpio and having such intense feelings in relation to various things, I've worked hard to direct this energy in ways that help, rather than hinder, myself and others.

         It seems as though this has been a lifelong process- channeling my obsessive tendencies in healthy ways. Another challenge has been figuring out how to do that specifically for ME.

         I believe that each of us, our soul, has something/s unique and wonder full to share with the universe. I've felt that way since I was a child, but unveiling what these things were/are has been frustrating and sublime. However, it's becoming easier as I've become more honest with myself and others.

          The holiday season can stir many emotions within us all- on personal, familial and societal levels. As soon as Thanksgiving ended, I felt this heightened anxiety and strong resistance within me. I began running in mid-November (dancing & swimming too) to help counteract some of these feelings that had arisen due to a close friend's pain & seeing my own magnified, with more to come on the horizon.

      Change was in the air and I was lost in the sauce. Meditation was (& is) my saving Grace. Being quiet- making that time to BE- has allowed my mind to hear what my soul whispers to my heart and soul. This holiday season, it was saying, "You are a musician...just play It honestly...all IS and will continue to BE...okay....TRUST Me...."

          That was a clear message shared with my on Christmas day, which was an emotionally tumultuous day for me. Once I heard that message, and accepted it, I felt like a HUGE weight had been lifted and shackles released from my feet. One minute I wanted to sleep forever (though I wasn't sleepy-I wished I was), the next minute I was elated! I didn't end up sleeping until around noon the next day- after watching a documentary that changed me forever.

         On Christmas day, I'd returned a movie to Acme's Redbox movie rental device. I didn't plan to get another, but I had the time to watch more (a rarity) and I saw two that interested me enough to get them. Both were documentaries. Paper Heart was about a woman chronicling her search for true Love (& questioning her belief in It). The other, It Might Get Loud, was about the electric guitar, featuring Jimmy Page, The Edge and Jack White.

           It Might Get Loud showed me without a doubt just how passionate I am about music and how obsessed I am with the electric guitar. I'd already sent an email to the family I babysat for part-time telling them that I wish for them to find a replacement for me asap so I could spend more time focused on music. I'd no idea just how much this would all change my whole life.

      Jospeh Campbell's saying, "Follow your bliss" kept coming to mind. Yesterday, while doing my show, I looked up that phrase to remember what he said about a Path being there the whole time. This is what I found on his website: www.jcf.com

 

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ALL THE TIME...

THIS is what I wish~ for Us/All,

now & all Ways.